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08:17 pm
2/8/10

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bi_life
Vanilla twilight
Hellos!
I'm back.
I need to be here more but my lappy crashed and the school laptop is like a bitch.
So i blog less and i'll be giving back the lappy on thursday which means no more internet for i dunno how long.
Hopefully,i'll find a way.

OMG!
The semester has so call ended and this is the last week which is filled with UTs.
I just finished 2 dreadful UTs and i think i screwed up chem.
But whatever.
I'm devasted that W24B has to split.
We're just can't part yet,
Even today we were together the entire day till we went home.
I love them all.
Especially my sisters and buddies!
I'll upload pictures tmr.

And i am not going to watch paramore cause Josh Farro isn't joining them cause he is planning his wedding.
I am not going to waste 88bucks for just 4 of them.
I want all 5 of them.
Taylor yorks brother is filling in for him.
I hope lamb of god doesn't do this to me as well or worse cancel.

Tmr i have to be up at like 6 plus cause my UT is at 8.30.
OMG!
But it is PCB so nvm.
And it would also mean 3 down and one more to go and then it is obar.
Whoopee!
I'm happy i end my UTs a day earlier than most people.
hahas.

Our 15th monthsary just passed.
We got a job that we will be starting after cny.
Hmmmm.....
I dunno what else to update so i shall just end it here and go download all my PCB 6ps.

Byebye!
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12:29 am
1/31/10

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knock you down
Tsk!
It's the 2nd day of week 15.
That means counting today 3 days more left with lovelies and then will be dreadful UTs where we all get split up.
I'm super angry they split us up though.
Irritating school.
We will spend the time wisefully together.
hahas.

Whoopee!
It's our 14th monthsary today!
 I'm so happy!
*big smile*
I've finally found of a Vday present but i'm wondering if i would have time with UTs and all.
Nvm just take the time i'm free and chiong.
I cannot wait to see your face=)

RP girl scandal.
somewhat like tammy.
hahas.
Bullshit lah this girl got suspended or expelled in the end.

Okays sleep now.
byebye.
nights! 

P.S: The grammy's was dope! though i don't get why taylor swift won album of the year cause gaga or beyonce would have totally deserved it.
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09:34 pm
1/28/10

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bi_life
Don't stop


Omg week 14 is coming to an end.
That is damn fast.
week 15 would pass by in some ultra speed and then it would be UT3.
I will be pulling my hair and studying cause i have no choice.
Must bring that 1.3 gpa to at least 1.5 or if possible 1.8.
Then year 3 chiong all the way bring to 2 something.
i'll prove the moosa that i am better.

I'm going to miss jianing and andy alot as i mentioned before.
And there are a few others as well.
I'm thankful that i have nisha and haikal in the same FYP team as me.
So i can see them till year 3 ends.
But i know the other people in my class that i love i will see them, we will hang out somehow.
class chalet.
Cannot wait.

I'm tired and i was suppose to take a nap at 7 but now it is 9.31.
tsk!
I think my laptop is going to crash and that would be an extra problem added to the problem it already has.
I'm not even using it now.
I'm using the bloody slow school's laptop.
ERGH!

I NEED A JOB!

Byebye!
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09:54 am
1/19/10

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Decisons and choices we make,make us who we are
Choices!
We all make them everyday.
Some of us choose to leave in the moment or we choose to live in the day.
That's a choice we make.
I haven really decided if i live in that moment or i just live for those days to come.

and now i need to make a decision that i will have to live with the rest of semester 1 year 3.
Tsk!
media writing, development journalism,arts management or photography!
which one? 
help me make a choice.
hahas.

Okay nvm i've made an impromtu decision.
If it is successful then my modules for year 3 semester 1 would be:
T241 Anthropological studies
A103 Anatomy and physiology
E336 Biomedical signal processing
E338 Biomedical instrumentation

It is my final decision and i am sticking with it.
I pray i get my elective like damn people cause i am studying about people.
Thanks to victoria for abit of insight on the module.
I am not set and made a no turning back decision that i am very happy about.
Live in the moment.
hahas.

alrights back to ugly betty.
byebye!
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11:36 pm
1/11/10

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It's not enough!
Fuck i failed as i expected.
And i need to retake.
damn sia.
My resolution was study harder i am going to retake and mug till i pull my hair out.
New syllabus for maths.
hopefully it's easier somehow.

Good thing.
Just recieved email about FOP.
Got interview next week.
Must get.

My entire class who retook failed.
Don't worry guys this time round we'll pass.
We'll mug together if possible.
Jianing please don't cry everything will be okay babe.

W24B will make it through this sem as a class=)

Alrights.
Byebye!

P.s: A7X seems to be keeping my cool now.
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01:18 am
1/6/10

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The sadness will never end!
 Well the new year started which meant the start of school.
Another like 5 or 6 weeks of agony.
It's already the third day of the first week.
quick start, i like a lot.

I love my classmates a hell lot,well most of them except for a few.
There are people in my class that i never would expect would be there to hear me out in my time of sadness.
I kinda thought this year meant i would need to find friends who would always be there for me and understand me.
well they were with me all this time in W24B.
I love you'll a hell lot.
gossiping and just talking and fooling around.
But when it comes down to work we're serious and we do help each other out but at the end of the day i feel happy cause of them.
My boyf as well too.
He's like the main foundation for my happiness if that breaks then all else fails right.
I'll be damn sad when we end this semester but i know there are a few like my fyp team mates currently only 2 people including me.
and there is a few others that i'll be close to even after this.
Love you'll and i love you a hell lot too baby.


Tmr is a very dreadfully day i need to go sim lim before my UT to get wire wrapper.
fuck!

Alright!
byebye!
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07:08 am
1/1/10

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oh my 2010
 It is the new year.
I am quite upset that i didn't get to spend it with the people who meant the most to me or the people i love.
I spent it with unexpected people like andy and kumar and 2 of their friends.
I'm happy that at least people bothered convincing me to go out with them.
And then i leave halfway from them and come to my boyf's house and i'm left awkward.
So now i'm in his roon trying to feel tired(which i can't by the way) and he is drinking upstairs happily with his friends.

2010 could not start any worse can it.
When i said maybe this year might be different and i guess it is very much going to be.
I already can feel that it is going to be one of those years where i will fall in major depression and life will just suck for me.
I thought it was getting better but god just decided to give me one good year and that is it.

I hope 2010 will not be a heart ache like back in 2008 or even the years before that.
I rmb i had big problems in life that sometimes i wonder why i experienced them at such a young age.

I will be 20 this year i expect to be matured and i think i should be thinking and planning for my future already.


2010 please pass by fast.
thank you!
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04:27 am
12/28/09

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breathe you in
 I am still plan-less for new years eve which would mean i most probably would be spending it alone at home.
How sad but maybe it would mean a different year ahead.

My new years resolution for 2010 in a few words:
-study hard
-better things
-lesser fights
-more bestfriends time
-cut smoking off totally
-save ,save ,save
-bangkok
-Get through FYP

Reflection of 2009 in a few words:
-a much better year
-managed a relationship(which i've never done before)
-cut off smoking(proud of myself and so are a few people)
-made new friends=)
-best birthday ever
-grandpa passed away(was a very sad time)
-Realised i need help with my depression
-TYLER!
-Mum will never be a mother
-oreo=(
so that is basically how 2009 was for me and how i want 2010 to be.
Omg!
and i'm going to be 20.
Teenagehood byebye!
Sad but i guess we all have to grow up.

Alrights i need to go sleep now.
If not i'll waste another day sleeping in for like half a day.

Byebye!
nights!
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01:45 am
12/26/09

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santa baby!
I love christmas cause it gets us friends together every year.
we sit and reminisce about the past, talk about the future and deal with the present.

I'm listening to oasis now and i feel like watching butterfly effect.

ohohoh and norwegian recycling has very good remixes!

I am not looking forward to new years eve=(
2010 will be better as paramore i am going for and then 2nd year would end and bring in a very dreadful year as i have fyp.
But i get to work and earn some dough when 2nd year ends.
Which will allow me to do other stuff with them=)

Alright i will try to find my new years eve mood and do something about it.
byebye!
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02:33 am
12/20/09

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I hate this. I hate tonight cause i dunno what is wrong with me. It's one of those days where i wish i could just fall asleep in someones hands=(
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03:49 am
12/19/09

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here's to entropy
 This week was good.
I party-ed and attended a very good gig, which will most probably be my last  for this year.
Let me say it was awesome, watching an aussie band who is now signed with equal visions.
They're damn good live and they're the most nicest bunch of guys.
The pics baby and me took with the lead singer was somehow gone.
But we managed to get pics with the guitarist,michael and the drummer,beau=)
I love beau=)
Next week is basically more partying for me.
hahas.

Next year will be good cause i am going to watch paramore bitches!
Wohoo!
i can't wait.

I want to meet my classmates cause i miss them.
When are we meeting up?

Alrights that's all.
byebye.
nights!
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01:25 am
12/16/09

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call me on my telephone, boy!
Holidays are officially here.
So damn happy.
The end of chem UT2 gave me this feeling of freedom.
No more dragging myself out of bed just to get to school in the morning.
Wohoo!
Now, since it's the holidays it would mean club as much as possible and see my favourite twins as much as possible too=)
Tmr i club at phuture my favourite place.
I so cannot wait and i pray for the twins to go.
Baby is going as well.
And i hope janet chooses zouk over dbl o.
Then all my favourite people would be in one place.

I'm currently waiting for baby to get home from the airport.
He went to pick his mum and sis up.

New year's resolution 1:
Get to school properly(which i am already doing) and get very good grades for UTs( i think i am doing that now).
New year's resolution 2:
Less fights with baby!
New year's resolution 3:
Save money from any kind of job i get and save money, so that i can club on weekends.

Currently that's what i've came up with.
If there are anymore will type it down here.

Right now is get enough rest for tonight=)
Nights!
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06:39 pm
12/12/09

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The end is nearing
In 18 days it will be new years eve and i haven't decided what i am going to do.
Because i dunno what to do cause i'm stuck between 2 things.
I came to a decision though.
I'll just stick with it and see how 2010 will be for me,alone on my couch with the tv infront of me and my lappy beside me.
hahas.

At least i get to spend christmas this year with all the people i love=)
I cannot wait.
One more day of school till holidays.
Whoopee!
I'll miss my classmates a whole lot but we've promised to meet up.
Must must.

Now i need to do the most important thing when it's nearing the end of the year.
new year resolutions.
I will think up of important ones and write it down here as i always do.

Alrights.
byebye.
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03:12 pm
12/10/09

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Everyone of us has a story
last week, i think exactly one week ago i saw this boy who sat directly opp me in the train.
When he sat opp me, i just had this sudden thing.
He looked exactly like oli sykes.
The pout, the facial features and his fringe.
I was like okay.
The only problem was that he was chinese and he didn't have long hair as in hair not fringe.
Hahas.
And and he's in year 1=(
And i saw him that very day as well during second break lining up for vitagen.
and basically he's my new eye candy=D
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01:06 am
12/9/09

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remind me where the light is
Haven really done anything proper here.
Missed school like on fri and mon thanks to my stupid flu and cough.
now it's just the blocked nose.
But i promise i'll go to school until next monday and endure 2 UTs and schools bulky laptop that i will be collecting tmr.
The reason being the fan in my laptop has something wrong and is making a hell lot of noise.
And cause of this my lappy gets extremely hot,overheats and dies.
I need my toy r us pay and go pay for the servicing and all.

This is bye bye from tyler=)
nights!
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01:18 am
12/5/09

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driveway
Every second of everyday someone says grace or sheds a tear for someone they've lost or to let go of someone who is already gone and to accept it.
Tonight i say grace.
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02:10 pm
12/2/09

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HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY!
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01:19 am
12/1/09

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-24 hours
There is less than 24 hours to go and we already are in it and not happy.
This one year anniversary would not mean anything if we're in a fight on the eve of it.
=(
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03:30 am
11/28/09

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Love us
Even when i made an oath to put something in here often i can never stick with it.
I suck or more like i'm out 3/4 of my time and hardly ever at home.
TSK!
I need to do something about it.

Oh wells....
wednesday was really very last min decisions sorta day.
Was suppose to club but everyone were 50/50 or sick.
So it was cancelled and i went to thompson to watch baby play soccer.
This golden retriever was so god damn adorable it came up to me and just sat there asking for the biscuits in my hand.
How fucking adorable can that get?
hahas.
After which i went back home cause it was late and baby was suppose to head to school the next day(which he didn't).
When i stepped into my room ruth calls me and tells me that she is at zouk to actually surprise and i am not there.
Because she went all the way down even when she has school from like 1-10 the next day.
I cabbed down cause that's what a bestfriend should do.
I'm happy i went down.
We got to catch up alot and did abit of dancing.
But still i'm happy i got to see her.
holidays are coming then i can see her more.
I cannot wait.

Alrights i was doing 'Project 1 year anniversary' and i got abit tired.
I'm putting in the finishing touches and i need to get something to have it completed.
So hopefully by wed i will be finished.
I cannot wait to see the look on baby's face=)

Alrights i shall try to go sleep cause i need to wake up to a wake up call at dunno what time.
Am going to watch baby's game=D
Nights!
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02:47 am
11/25/09

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500 days of summer
I am almost done with ' project 1 year anniversary' and i still have a week.
Whoopee!
That's how excited i am for next wednesday.
And the fun of this wednesday has not even started yet.
It starts in a few hours and i cannot wait.

Phuture here i come.
OMG!
Did i mention Ruth may just be there tonight.
I miss her so much i cannot wait to see her if she is there.
And i cannot wait to have fun with Janet, Andy,kumar and jag.

Baby made my tuesday worth.
I had fun just sitting and hanging around town.
He even paid for this bag i liked first.
Now i have a new bag=)
Thank you baby!

I'll go sleep now cause i need to wake up to get something that i tried hunting for in town but couldn't get.
And i want to eat bak chor mee.
Baby wants to hear me order it in the afternoon later cause it will be my first time.
hahas.
He even taught me how to order.
Minced pork noodle, dry and mee kia.
ahahahahahhas!

Alrights i shall go sleep.
Nights!
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